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Let’s Stay a Bit Longer
Words and Music by D.T. Lam

I’m still young, unlearned, but I can see you anyway
Let’s hide away for one night and I’ll tell you why my eyes are black
Then you can leave me stranded cause everything fades out and dies
Let’s consume our love so rapidly and curse the world behind

You came along to stay awake, over-dressed but underpaid
If I could hold on to anything lyrical
Then I will let my longings go there just maze of memories
What did you expect from kids who grew up on liquor books and drugs

No I can’t hang around anymore, even though I’m not afraid
You’re so tired, let me miss you

Curtains will drop and hide the fucking state of our lives
It seems that fifty restless souls have auctionned our bodies and minds
Still I will stand unarmed cause I’ve got only my hopes to spare
Please leave me my head and legs so I know which way to draw

No I can’t hang around anymore, even though I’m not afraid
You’re so tired, let me miss you
You’re so tired, let me miss you

Reasons & Treasons
Words and Music by D.T. Lam

And I wake up fine, then I start to remember
Through cross mental wires, expectations I’ve kept

So I walk up town, skies are green and the air is clogged
With iron and dust, filtering the wine inside

I cover my ears, cars are chasing in circles
Crasinh to blazes, I finally smile

And all the freeling, falling line, floating around
They carry messages of murders and borken lives
Nothing I care about

My faith has vanished, your dim eyes are scaring me
Your voice is blaring, through windows and walls

So I run up town, begging for a little more time
Crawling on my hands and knees, where are you baby

Now my back is breaking, so I get up and forget all about
The reasons and treasons, seasons without a stronghold

And all the freeling, falling line, floating around
They carry messages of murders and borken lives
Nothing I care about

While Escaping
Words and Music by D.T. Lam

A few lights rolling by the sky
Unknown glances quickly passing by
Business windows sleeping for a while
Ignored beauty, your songs cross my mind.

Silent alleys screaming through the night
Silent alleys screaming through the night
A few fights breaking the time
Unknown souls soothing with wine
I do not see them, your songs fill my mind.

I am falling down just like a kite
The wind is pushing me blowing left and right
Where I live is far but it goes so fast
I am coming back home, the time of a song...

Silent alleys screaming through the night
Silent alleys screaming through the night
A few fights breaking the time
Unknown souls soothing with wine
I do not see them, your songs fill my mind.

Patterned smiles
Words and Music by D.T. Lam

I know I should have listened understand that there’s no reasons at all
That even time and passion lay beneath this language they’ve made up, so loud
I keep changing the frequency but it’s lack of purety drown so heavily
Years it took to understand, there’s nothing worth a single dime

I know I’m caught with feelings I faked and lies I swallowed too fast
I know I’m caught with feelings I faked and lies I swallowed too fast

Forgotten streams of beauty, words are signs of knowledge covered in dust
They send our fathers to misery, burned nations changed History to feed our kids
Every night’s an endless game of patterned smiles and clouds of smoke
So I’ll drink myself blind again to be finally cured and run for president

I think I’m lost with feelings I faked and lies they swallowed too fast
I think I’m lost with feelings I faked and lies they swallowed too fast

There was this girl I thought she understood, her eyes were green and dried by tears maybe just fear.
So I hurt her to feel alive, to have control and to be a man, a worthy man.
I should change my name and run away but that’s a childish thought I can’t afford to have.
So I’ll find another soul I can battered down to walk my fucking ground

She will be lost with feelings I’ll fake and lies she’ll swallowed too fast
She will be lost with feelings I’ll fake and lies she’ll swallowed too fast

A non smoker who likes to laugh
Words and Music by D.T. Lam

Please don’t come back home now, there’s no one waiting for you
There’s no sorrow pulling you down, not even me
The rain has dretched all the sidewalks, bad weather’s stuck in my veins
The forests of Ireland are burning, but in my mind the dust has settled

So I’m writting to say goodbye, goodbye to your filthy eyes
Goodbye to your sunken heart, goodbye to your sweet smile

I have no strengh left in my voice, it’s harder to justify life
My fingers are dried to the bones, I’ll rest my head thinking a drink will lift me up
A least my friends are strong, depressed, fucked-up but strong
We walk every night half alive, but they make me breathe, they make me breathe

Please come back to me soon
I’ll stand straight withdraw my drama
I’ll try to smile, unfold my lungs
Become a non smoker with time
To ignore the struggle of it all

Please come back to me soon
I’ll stand straight withdraw my drama
I’ll try to smile, unfold my lungs
Become a non smoker with time
To care for politics and dogs

I try to earn my pennies, squandered it all in memories
Who cares if faith has drown in oceans filled with gold
I swim against the crowded stream to the roots of our love
But the dirt is filled with rocks, how I could I blame you
The only thing you did was leaving, so I’ll write your name again
On thousand sheets of laughter so they can roam the streets and hills untill dawn

So I’m writting to say goodbye, goodbye to your filthy eyes
Goodbye to your sunken heart, goodbye to your sweet smile

Please come back to me soon
I’ll stand straight withdraw my drama
I’ll try to smile, unfold my lungs
Become a non smoker with time
To ignore the struggle of it all

Please come back to me soon
I’ll stand straight withdraw my drama
I’ll try to smile, unfold my lungs
Become a non smoker with time
To care for politics and dogs

Now I Lay Me
Words and Music by D.T. Lam

I stumbled through your dream one night
But it still lasts and lingers on
And I need it, all the time
I heard your words were read by men
A thousand miles away from town
So I’ll sing them again and again

And I know that you’ll never grow old
But one day it’s obvious you’ll die

Twenty year old kids just drink and laugh
They spend their money on death’s expense
But they need all the time
They’re expanding, wasting nights and days
So cars won’t fill up their minds
And it costs twenty bucks to live

And they know that they will grow old
And one day it’s obvious they’ll die

Now I just Lay Me… Now I just Lay Me down.

We met quietly in a stubborn wind
Ash and snow clouding our eyes
Just dreaming of quievering hearts
But grasps of hopes and claims of names
Melt faster then the winter sky
So when we’ll meet again
I’ll try to remember your name
I’ll sing you verses wrapped in lies
So sweet and mostly kind
It will feel like silk on fire

And I know that you’ll never grow cold
But one day it’s obvious I’ll die without you

Now I just Lay Me… Now I just Lay Me down

Her mother died late in spring
Her father wanders around
In an empty, vacant house
So she took her bags and paced around
Her hair swayed like ocean tides
Inside my fragile mind

I know that time just frozed and left
Your tears scattered on the ground
But I need you again and again
Cause despair cannot be simply cured
The wounds will linger on for years
But I need you all the time

Then we’ll lay down side by side
When night comes we’ll finally sleep

Spiral City
Words and Music by D.T. Lam

All the way back home, as I drove along the sidelines
I stared behind at the spiral city where I left you waiting

Cause the blissful mad kid I once was is a murky hidden scar
In the murderess mud of my mind and flesh on your skin

And I don’t feel trapped I don’t feel free
There’s a tasteless scent that overwhelms me
And I don’t feel a strife looming quietly
Maybe we’re all confined to stutter endlessly

As your body flutters above mine, my breath freezing your hair
Our bed like a shelter too small for us in the unsuited concrete voices
There are streaks of losers in this dirty town, your shutter covering me
In a perfect fraction of a distant frame like a stain I’ll leave in time

And I don’t feel trapped I don’t feel free
There’s a tasteless scent that overwhelms me
And I don’t feel a strife looming quietly
Maybe we’re all confined to stutter endlessly

Every breath we take, every single line of misread poetry

All the way back home, as I drove along the sidelines
I stared behind at the spiral city where I left you...

Someday Words Will Mean More Than Your Spit in my Face
Words and Music by D.T. Lam

They sold me a house, they sold me a daughter, they sold me everything I could afford
But when the bills went overdue, I sat alone thinking of you

I drifted away on songs made of pearls
Reaching for a purpose I could grasp without pain
But you just laughed straigth at my heartaches
And my head sunk beneath your feet

I swayed pass the flashing lights of scattered glass on the grass
Where you resent me for the last time, I sat alone watching you leave

We built a hollow dream and a life
So fragile no strength could ever hold it in place
But I embrassed it through my sad days
So I guess death won’t do us apart

And on and on I thought I could sing you to sleep
That words could mean more than your spit in my face
And on and on I thought I could fill up my lungs
To spill it out in a thousand shades of hatred

So I threw away my worthless dreams I threw away my cigarettes
But when the bills went overdue, I sat alone wishing I was you

I scribbled down the lines of your face
Forgot half the words you use to whisper to me
When you embrassed me through your sad days
And my hands sunk beneath your feet

We built a hollow dream and a life
So fragile no strength could ever hold it in place
But I embrassed it through my sad days
So I guess death won’t do us apart

And on and on I thought I could sing you to sleep
That words could mean more than your spit in my face
And on and on I thought I could fill up my lungs
To spill it out in a thousand shades of hatred

And on and on I thought I could sing you to sleep...

Mud and Stones
Words and Music by D.T. Lam

Don’t drink too much my darling
There’s no storm coming up tonight
I think that half a bottle
Is way enough for your fractured blues

The war is years away behind
Let’s watch reruns and light up the sky
Let’s wait untill tomorrow
For your tears to fade into my blood

Truth is I’m wretched and broken
I really need the other half
So let’s not waste a single drop
And laugh about our civil rights

I miss the wind swiftly blowing pushing September away
Memories of careless days in fields with gathered stones

I used to hold my innocence
In jars of mud and rusty nails
Days have been long and I’m trying too hard
To lift my head straight up again

Letting Go
Words and Music by D.T. Lam

I’ve waited around for so long it seems
I finally have to let you go on alone
Through the glittery day, cursing my name

You said you gave me too much and that nobody ever could
Hurt you like the way that I have
Now you’re lost and confused, you don’t know what you’ll do

I’m so sorry, the years have strained me
Now I’m letting go, letting go
I’m so tired, the years have drained me
Now I’m letting you go, letting you go

I’m looking around for any sign you have left, but there’s only a few hairpins
Dropped on the floor of my room
I hope you are well and it really kills me, but it’s like that

It’s a shame I’m sorry cause you never loved me, there’s no doubt in my mind
You dedicate yourself to need and lust I was a winding road
Another path in your sight

I’m so sorry, the years have strained me
Now I’m letting go, letting go
I’m so tired, the years have drained me
Now I’m letting you go, letting you go